mY LiFe

2009-09-23T13:57:00.002+08:00

Just came back from town area and had been surfing the net for 1 hr. Not for my econ project but for some misc stuff. Mentally tired. Don't feel like starting on my tutorials. I am wasting my time. What to do? No mood.

2009-09-10T19:44:00.000+08:00

I notice something new when i am signing in to blogger. It seems like it's blogger anniversary or birthday.
Ha, today is maio birthday. Happy 20th!

How? I have to submit 4 tutorials and 45 qns on next tues. But i dun even have the slightest interest to do it. Told myself in the morning to try to do it.. but till now i have not started on a single q. I dun understand the lecture notes even. I will surely have a terrible weekend. Sigh~ For the sake of 10%, i ought to work hard. Can i?

14 Aug

2009-08-14T19:36:00.000+08:00

Out of a sudden, the second day of sch, i was down with flu and dry throat. Miserable. Have to breathe with mouth. But no fever.. Wait till fever den see doctor ba. I very responsible one.. everyday b4 go sch got check temperature. Gg to skip lecture tml.. gg to lazed ard at hm. But I very lazy to go revise my last sem work and do my tutorials. Aw, 1 year from today will be the start of SYOG. Got countdown party at padang today. And today is xinyi and chen lao shi birthday. Happy birthday! Send a msg to teacher chen earlier and she was surprised. I also you yu whether to send her msg not. :)

2009-08-13T09:49:00.000+08:00

I gave up. No one gg to drop. Going to think of appeal later. Today no class, but i am feeling sick.

2009-08-11T17:39:00.000+08:00

i am tired. i totally can't fall asleep yest night. so didn't slp at all.
i am tired. why no one is dropping mb102. keep on refreshing and checking bores me.
i am tired. till i saw a 1 when it was actually a 0.

2009-08-10T15:17:00.000+08:00

After 3 long mths of break, lessons gg to start tml. and i feel unprepared... mentally & emotionally.
Need to adjust quickly. Haiya, i will then miss my kangxi and 100%entertainment. But i think at least i will sleep early in the night.

sleepless night

2009-08-06T13:02:00.000+08:00

Damn, can't fall asleep again yesterday. The second time this week that i slept at 3 am.
So i was watching this reality show called "the moment of truth". Those participants are damn daring to confess to all those invasive questions in front of their partners and friends and of course the public. Well, is it worth to exchange your secrets with cash? Only if i am desperate for money then probably i will. But it was really fun watching them giving the true answers with the crowd jeering.
Then, i continued to watch "the bachelor, rome". Well, i don't really like it. Seeing all those pretence of friendship and love. But that's the reality. And, i think it's hard to find true love thru this kind of show. But i am not saying it's impossible.

agonising morning

2009-08-04T03:23:00.000+08:00

AGONISING!! I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP! AFTER 2 HRS OF TOSSING ARD! I GAVE UP!

2009-07-15T11:34:00.003+08:00

Received my wireless modem last friday. :) This means i can use my laptop at home without it clinging onto the modem. Oh, and last friday was the last day of my work. It's a bit weird not to take any photos and being notified like 1 day earlier of your last day. A bit unfeeling. Well anyway now i can really have ample rest at home. Back to an aimless life again. Recently, mosquitoes plagued my house and left me with umpteen marks. Please let someone drive it away.

Big Black Ants

2009-06-23T18:16:00.002+08:00

This afternoon was so crap. First, i didn't manage to get the slots i want. I patiently waited for the time to reach (which made me so bored) and i only get 2 of my planned slots out of 5 of my courses when i clicked punctually. I detest that feeling of waiting and nervousness when i can't get the course. :( But eventually, I have registered for all my courses. Phew~ Second, what made me boiled up today was a stretch of ants that started from outside the door till the end of the kitchen. I supposed it was at least a 20 m. Can you imagine that i was killing the ants and also checking on the course vacancy at the same time? Stupid ants came into my house for no reason at all. There isn't any leftover bits of food or dead animals on the floor for them. After that massacre, i still had to deal with the aftermath- sweeped away the carcasses and mopped the floor. A rather unforgettable scene.

2009-06-17T14:00:00.001+08:00

i changed my blogskin today. :) it would be better if i can add music. but i duno how. :"0

2009-05-20T18:39:00.002+08:00

Haha... recently hook up with doing personality test... maybe because of the trip to popular. The following test is so damn accurate!
测测你的心胸宽广度假如你向树林深处走去，你觉得将会遇到甚么呢？ A. 人 B. 动物 C. 土人 D. 仙女 B 型.....你是个不爱发脾气的人，所以很易相处。你喜欢的恋爱方式是经过时间累积而逐渐酝酿出来的感情。你能包容恋人的一切，即使对方做错了事，你也不愿和他争吵。但一味的忍气吞声，可能会助长对方得寸进尺。

2009-05-18T12:02:00.002+08:00

It's raining now and my living room is now pitch dark.
I just took a personality test from coca-cola and it said i am green.

Let see ar:
Strengths: Focus, hardworking, dogged determination
Weaknesses: Can sometimes be slow to adapt to new ways, resistant to change
Colour compatibility: Blue- loyal and reliable
Purple- shares the same lack of creativity
Pink- who knows how to make him a better person
Charcoal- boring and lazy
Lime- takes adv of his natural charisma to what he wants, rather through hard work

Well, i just took it for fun. But i am not too sure abt the colour compatibility.. who say i lack creativity.. haha.

2009-05-06T15:57:00.001+08:00

watched 17 again yest. nice and touching movie. ya, and it's funny too. main actor is cute. haha.

2009-04-29T14:05:00.002+08:00

Haha, it has been months since i last blog. The exams are over and i am slacking at home. Well, hope someone can ask me out as i am bored. Plain bored. Life hasn't been good. Hope everyone is happy and healthy.

When i first heard about the news on swine flu, i was puzzled. Why animals can get so sick? And even spread the virus to humans? Why must we undergo another round of epidemic? We are strange organisms which I can never really understand. Why can people hit with depression just because they are jobless or even with jobs? I hate illness. It's a torture, physically and mentally. Although it is often said that adversities are stepping stones of our lives and will enable us to be stronger and braver, if given a choice I would want none.

bird

2009-01-11T13:44:00.003+08:00

I have sch tml but till now i still haben start reading the chpts and complete the tutorial.
Haiz... ya and i haben print notes for tml. Sianz. Aw, earlier on, my dad brought my uncle's newly captured prey over. Below are its photos. So lucky of him to catch the bird which a shopkeeper wanted to buy from him at 50 bucks. I wonder did the shopkeeper like cheated him or what because we know nth abt birds. I recalled the only pet that my house ever had was fishes. But the fishes was either return to mother nature or dead. I shall slack for a while before I really start on my work.

2009-01-08T16:11:00.002+08:00

Dun need to go sch today. So i finished up my tutorials and why the lecturer haben upload tml lect notes... why!! make me check n check... sick of it. tml lecture starts at 8.30 and 2.30. sianz 4 hrs of break! What am i gg to do? And i am waiting for the lecturer to upload tutorial... very inefficient lei.

first day of sch

2009-01-05T09:54:00.003+08:00

Today is the first day of school for me. But only going for a 2-hr lecture... quite bo liao de.
I am trying to adjust to sleeping early and waking up early. Woke up at 9 plus this morning with my alarm clock ringing at 8 am. It's 2009 le. Still not adjusted to writing 09 and aw i dun write dates on my papers anymore, not even my name and not even on my text. Strangely, i am not excited abt sch or rather the first day of lesson. I have yet to prepare anything... need to pack my bag later, buy my concession.

2009-01-01T09:32:00.002+08:00

Today is 010109. Yup, it's the first day of jan. Here, i wishes all my friends and family a happy new year. May this year be smooth sailing for my family and me. And let us all forget abt the unhappiness in 08 and embrace 09 joyfully. Let 09 be a fresh start for all and me.

But why the hell i can't fall asleep despite not sleeping at all since yest night.... i am very vexed now. I want to sleep.... let me sleep ba!!! The first order i received from my dad today when i reached home was to buy new paper. This is one of the rare time i buy newspapers. Anyway, i ought to do this often. And i gave my mum a great shock when i appeared at the door when she was opening it. The timing is so just nice. I need to learn to treasure my family.

Enjoy today everyone and it's time that i try to make myself fall asleep no matter what. Hopefully, i can.

2008-12-31T13:44:00.002+08:00

Didn't manage to get show's album yest n i also didn't ask. maybe it's not out yet in sg.
Today is 311208- the last day of year 2008. May 2009 be a great n joyful year for me.

tiring

2008-12-29T12:46:00.001+08:00

sometimes, i am tired of racing my pet, playing the same game over n over again. i am bored.

2008-12-29T11:30:00.002+08:00

i haben got show's album.. the notes in my wallet is disappearing! damn. no allowances also...
i wanna change new blogskin for the new year... but duno y tt skin tt i choose cannot click the links... who can help me?

scary (sem1 results out)

2008-12-29T11:13:00.003+08:00

wah... so anxious now.. till now also. wah... i still can't calm down sia!!
5 minutes ago, i checked my results lo. This is as worse as receiving a level results.
I passed all my subjects! happy :) as i expected i would fail both my econ papers. Both papers sux lo.. i practically left 1 part of my micro paper blank. You know, i really can't think of any logical crap to write in... tt was how desperate i was at tt time.
But at tt same time, i was disappointed. Why didn't i have a A at all? at least a- for my math papers. Sianz.. the grading a bit weird.
Next sem muz work hard... dun care if i am call a mugger or nerd.. hopefully i am hardworking and disciplined enuff to mug.

Sleepless Morning

2008-12-27T17:10:00.002+08:00

oh sux this morning was damn tormenting for me. i hate the feeling of can't get to sleep. Hate insomnia! Hate insomnia!!! I fell asleep at 4 plus lo.. when 1 hour later my parent is getting up to go to work.

2008-12-26T14:18:00.000+08:00

today is 261208. finally. trendy man...

lazy bum

2008-12-22T19:05:00.002+08:00

2 more weeks and school is going to start le.. and that means my holidays are ending!
Wondering where will i be going to for next year cny. I don't wanna stay at home at da nian chu yi!!! pathetic man. hopefully not. It will be the 2nd cny w/o my grandparents. I think somehow in a family we must have a senior if not like short of something.. weird weird de.

Had a long long dream today. But when i woke up, i can rarely recall what it's about. Anyway, the ending is rather scary. I have been skipping my breakfast for the past 1 week. Well, because my body has adjusted to waking up at 12 pm. Sometimes, i even woke up at 1pm. haha. Waiting patiently for luo's album.

2008-12-12T13:24:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching hot shot. Nice drama. Love yuandaying. :)

Outing with relatives

2008-12-08T17:57:00.009+08:00

I just came back from my big family outing with my relatives. We went to pray at this loyang temple. This is the first time that I volunteer myself to go to temple. This is damn rare lo, because normally at home, I don't even pray. Perhaps maybe like few important occasions in a year then i would hold a joss stick. Haha.

Then we went for lunch at changi village. The fried chicken wing is damn crispy. Got the chi-chi sound when I bite. Nice and cheap.

Then we go to marina barrage to walk walk. That's the new reservoir in the city. The place was so damn cooling that it was so cold because of the weather. It was raining the whole day today.

The left of the picture on the right is the reservoir. The water is brown. The right side of the picture is the sea and the centre is the marina bridge. So when like there is excess water in the reservoir, the gates will open or the pumps will operate, depending on the tide of the water, and the water will flow towards the sea.

This is the water level of the reservoir but the markings are a bit blur. It's my phone fault.

This is the view of the Singapore Flyer from the reservoir.

I must get on it one day... haha. Maybe with my family.

There got pump house and a gallery which exhibits all those typical info abt the operations of the reservoir, how it was built, singapore water history... I got a shock when suddenly the water dropped from the ceiling for one of the exhibitions. Because the exhibition was indoors and i didn't expect to hear splash splash water sound. It was like suddenly sha-sha.

2008-12-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

Recently watched 4 christmases and bolt. Both are humor but the first one is very much nicer. Because the storyline is a bit unexpected as in i will never guess that the 2 main leads grew up in those kind of environments. The kind of humor they used is a bit of language and actions. I like the last part especially where they going to celebrate the birth of their child with their fun family members. The second one is funny but not quite worth the money to watch. Haha, but there is an added factor why i laughed during the show... because of a funny laughter coming from a male somewhere. I am tt type who would't request to watch cartoon in cinemas. The only cartoons movies i watched at cinemas are finding nemo, flushed away. tt's all ba. The first movie is very very very nice and i recommend it. First time, i like a movie so much. haha.

Dream

2008-11-29T08:11:00.005+08:00

I had a dream before waking up today. Every dream that i'll have is weird. Dreams are suppose to be weird and unrealistic. And when i have a dream, i will tell my mother. But she always don't listen to me and i forced her to. Now, my parents are not at home so no one to talk,haha, have to blog.

I was having physics lesson in a class with a female teacher. The class ended. I went to retrieve my stuff but was puzzled on what to do with it because i had tortoises and fishes with me. (i don't know why ... and i dun like pets) My friend went over to take a look at the fishes and they escaped. She was the only one jumping frantically to save the fishes from dying. I was like standing at one side looking at her and wondering why was she saving the fishes and laughing at her actions at the same time. : ) Then i took my stuff and we came to a slope. i nearly ran to the road. We walked to one dead end and saw our seniors having some sort of celebration. Then we were about to leave, i just remembered i haven't dispose of my tortosies. So i u-turn back and found a shop to be closed. Then when i was about to leave, the shop transformed as in cartoon when the walls moved and something came out.

2008-11-25T16:25:00.001+08:00

YEA! Exams ended le. :) Holidays is here.

2008-11-18T16:52:00.003+08:00

haha, it's been 1 mth since i last blogged.. Now still at the midst of exam, last 2 papers to go.
Sianz.. i think i maybe failing all my econs paper... Hope i passed all subjects, don't feel like retaking the modules again. i really need to work hard, but i am not motivated to,.. how?

2008-10-08T18:47:00.002+08:00

I reminded of my working days and my colleagues while I was eating yong tau foo today. Miss them. Just realise after 1 more mth will be final year exam le.. so damn fast, mid term like just ended last week.. Haiz.. got to brush up on my foundations. A happy thing was that i pass my discrete math. Wahaha. I really didn't expect that i can do all the qns when like during lecture i didn't understand a thing about coding. Hopefully, the fye will be easy as midterm. HAHA.

2008-10-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

Yea, so happy tml no matlab! Going to skip sch..

No Life

2008-09-19T11:59:00.003+08:00

It's has been 1 month and 2 weeks since school started. And i have been missing out on blogging, playing, watching my online dramas, and chatting on msn... :(
But so happy that holidays is coming.. haha. But still have to study for exam. Hopefully i can really get down to study.

2008-08-24T16:23:00.003+08:00

Wah.. it's been a long time since i blog, i think. Haha. And sch has started for 3 weeks le. I have sort of wasted these 3 weeks also. Haiz.. need to regain that fighting spirit soon. hopefully, i can despite having sickness as an excuse. But I still want to get better. I miss shan n maio n sh too greatly...

Today will be screening the closing cermony for the olympics games. Anticipating... i am damn impressed by china's opening cermony. It was so damn cool and high-tech. I really can't imagine that they are so damn good with technology and graphics. Aw, it's a job well done. Cheers. I am impressed by that mighty olympian, michael phelps too. Hope he don't retire now after getting his millions... I still wish to see his performance the next olympic. And we finally got our olympic medal after 48 years. Hopefully, we can get a gold for the next one.

Got to get back to doing my tutorials.

Class Gathering- 12.07.08

2008-07-13T19:38:00.005+08:00

Nice scenery @ pasir ris

(artistic pic hor)

BBQ cuttlefish

My fav mushroom!

Pit 13 w ppl in action
Chao ta cuttlefish

yhuan 's ke xing

birthday boy

Group pic

Ferris wheel on e way back

Yesterday, i had my class gathering plus birthday celeb for wx. It's a tiring day but an enjoyable and fun one. Haha, can disturb birthday boy somemore. Btw, the water was sprayed by me. hehe. I took lots of nice scenery pics. : ) But the sianz part is tt when guys gathered, they talk about ns stuff. And sometimes it is very boring! Yawn~

For the first time, i knew tt cuttlefish and mushroom can be bbq. I tot normally tt kind of mushroom is for steamboat de. Thks to sh and ym. And mushroom can be stir-fry too. Must try it one day when i got tt mood to cook. Ym's recipe: 1. remove the roots and wash the mushroom. 2. use butter instead of oil to cook and add a pinch of salt. 3. wait till the mushroom curl up, then set it for eating. I also learnt how to choose fresh prawns lei. Their heads must not be detached from their bodies and must not be black. Their flesh must be soft. Shld pick up some cooking skills someday. haha, someday...

Oh and on the way back, i saw the slow moving Ferris wheel. And it will be damn romantic to be up there with your loved one admiring the nice singapore scenery at night. Haha. And one msg i received yest caught me by surprise. I strike the 3rd prize on 12.07.08 lottery. But the sad thing is i only won 2.50 bucks. Cause the no tt came out is not exactly the no tt we buy. I would have never tot tt the no will strike like so soon or wat. And tt no came from some random pics tt we took at the club. Really, damn lucky on tt day.

nice stc scenery

2008-07-13T19:12:00.005+08:00

See, the scenery at my workplace is damn nice!

2008-07-11T21:38:00.000+08:00

sianz.. i can't seem to get the photos up. Damn. Next time.

Last Day of my First Job

2008-07-11T19:38:00.004+08:00

Today is Friday, july 11 '08. And it is my last day of my first job. Somehow, i am not tt emo to cry out or wat even though i spent half of the year over there. Maybe because i know tt we'll definitely keep in contact. But maybe not too often when sch term starts. Well, anyway, science has made communication so easy, fast and convenient. Definitely so.

I counted tt i have worked for ard 1010 hours at the club. Haha, i already get my dad to buy tt nice digits. Hope i strike.

Aw, i love the club; its surroundings, the scenery and the people over there. Going to post pics of the club. The clouds there are a lot nicer, cause maybe the place is quite open. But it is prone to raining. And it is very easy to see helicopter or aeroplane flying in the air. I will definitely rmb the memories tt i have w tt place and my colleagues.

Very fast, ard 3 weeks later, i will be gg to experience another "life", ie schooling instead of working. And this another part of my life caused me to wait for so long. Just like my manager said, i must really enjoy and treasure my schooling life. And because it could the last stage of schooling for me. A degree is enough.

Yea, tml gg for class gathering- bbq! Can gain weight again. hopefully :) But, I am getting lazy without exercising and stress.

Wonders what happened on monday.. haha. Going to a different place to pack my lunch- bb instead of staff canteen le. Or shld i cook? haha, i don't think so la.

2008-07-09T21:23:00.001+08:00

Tml is 10-07-2008. :)

2008-07-07T15:19:00.002+08:00

blogging again. damn restless now, maybe because of the cosy weather now and my aching muscles. Today is off day, slack day, mon-day. But still got things to do, make little presents for my colleagues and so my table is ultra messy now. but i am damn restless n weak. And sunday, which is yest, a walk down orchard took my 92 bucks away, not including my dinner and travel fares. And my mum was grumbling at me when i return home. in the end, i still didn't buy my shoes... ah, i can't stop not spending my money away. Juz rmb i need to get a screen protector for my mp4.

2008-07-07T13:11:00.002+08:00

wawawa :(

I didn't have a good quality sleep yest night... now feeling weak.

wawawa :(

Muscles pain and aching today, might be yest help my mum carried vegetables and walked for kilometers at orchard.

wawawa :(
Need to pack my jc stuff again!! to free up my shelves for uni. Sianz.

But so happy to know that i gain weight! i am 39kg, no longer 35. Doing admin work does help in fattening. Sadly, i still need another 11 more kg to be acceptable.

growing up

2008-07-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

The sighting of assets today was boring! very. Sort of wasted my time coz not even one asset was sighted. But it's ok coz i am only a temp. If not, i don't know how will i response if someone waste my 2.5 hours juz like tat.

I have long forgotten the feeling of frustration or being emo. I am happy. Happy to be so fortunate. No one show me temper at work, my colleagues are nice people. I am not obliged to entertain phone calls. And they give me simple tasks. But i am not sure, if i can really manage or cope with the obstacles faced when i really step into the working society. Maybe, i should start to learn to talk loudly and show my temper. haha. Then, i don't kana bully or push around. But it will be hard.

Suddenly, there is a lot of work for me. But it's alright for them to exploit me. It's better than idling around with really nothing to do at all except staring in the air.

The weekend is going to be here again. :) Woot.

sight-seeing

2008-07-02T19:33:00.000+08:00

Tml will be the 7th time that I will be sighting stc’s assets.

I still rmb the first sight-seeing. It was the security dept. I think tat time I was quite toot or rather very clumsy, coz i expected go down to their office and see see, very fast will return back to office. haha. But it was not lo. Damn different from what I expected. So i went down with my jacket, my pass which got no lanyard or clip, some highlighters (no pencil box) and a “clip-board” (made with cardboard de). I wore a short-skirt tat day even. Ta- ta, off I went with my colleague. At her desk, we waited for the person from security to photocopy the list and we left the office! She took the key and the next thing is we will be moving around with the buggy. I thought it was alright la, but that day was like so hot, den I got all my stuff still have to assist them to look for the asset no and tick. Still have to check tat I didn’t drop my pass. Tat day, I really hope I got another pair of hands. Also, have to jump off the buggy at any time coz we are moving with the horses. And that buggy was like moving with a toot toot sound. Haha, I nearly fell down tat day. So the assets under security dept were not in the office but were around the club. The other times were fine, except that I brought my jacket along at the wrong timing. And I kana laughed by the colleague when I went over to sight his dept assets the 2nd time. One day cannot finish sighting one dept assets because it’s like a lot and a lot and it is all over the club. Luckily, it will be sampling sighting for some depts. But it’s good exercise after lunch.

Tml I’ll be going to sight property’s assets. Hope it will be interesting. Haha, it definitely will be because of the colleague who is bringing us around. My colleague reminded me lots of time to wear pants. I guess I will rmb. Wonders what assets come under property. Maybe some big big machines or those tables and chairs or even gantries and railings.

2008-06-30T12:07:00.002+08:00

sick ar.. damn flu virus... n left 2 more weeks and i will say goodbye to my colleagues le. haiz. Need to start to do those applications for uni. but i am juz too lazy to do it.

horse-racing

2008-06-14T12:29:00.006+08:00

* I was fascinated by this "jockey" among the plants. *

I went to tour stc on 6/6/08. After working six months over there, it's the first time i went to watch horse racing. :) But, really felt very privileged on tt day. Experience what the riches would have; sitting gracefully at the tables, watching through the ceiling-ground, clear, stainless glass while having their dinner or drink. Haha. Too bad that they don't serve food to us at that level. Nothing good about their service and their food too. But anyway, no matter how bad it is, i think it's still keeping its customers. Haha. The rich got lots of money to spend. I think i sound a bit ostracising. But sometimes, bad service does piss people off.

2008-05-26T18:44:00.002+08:00

Just to share:
I found a very interesting website today, thks to mypaper and my diligence in reading chinese words. Haha. http://hi.baidu.com/2008anycall/blog/item/b6947d175a29bb0dc93d6d4a.html- this webpage is more convenient for easy reading.
Translator, Bunny：http://dzh.mop.com/mainFrame.jspurl=http://dzh.mop.com/topic/readSub_8179853_0_0.html
Author, Realcrazyman: http://www.cyworld.com/realcrazyman

It's about how different blood groups of people will act under certain situations. The graphics are really cute. I think some parts are quite true. But that part on punctuality is definitely not true for me. I think that most of my friends are blood type O. Haha.

2008-05-25T12:26:00.002+08:00

There's still 1 more week to June. Oh, yea and school holidays just started. Very boring. Nothing excites me now. I had stopped playing maple- boring game. Though now the game may have changed a lot. I will get tired of killing monsters. I had stopped exercising since i graduated from school. 7 months already. I seldom take the bus now. A lot have changed. I enjoy watching movies a lot nowadays. No special reason. Recently, watch the forbidden kingdom. I would say it's an average one.

those good old days

2008-05-16T18:51:00.002+08:00

Of no reason i went thru those letters and cards i received during pri sch days earlier on. Those memories of the past. Come to think of it, i have never received any more letters or cards since upper sec. How sad. ha. Felt weird weird de, when reading them. Miss my friends, though we may not have anymore common topics together. Those good one days tt we once shared.

I miss my good pals in jc too. Cel, shan, maio, sh, elisa. Long time n c, esp cel, maio n elisa. Wonder how are them now. At least got chat w elisa yest. Haiz. Maio ah. I suddenly dread growing up, don't feel like working and toiling my soles (is this phrase right?) for the rest of my life, supposedly i live to that old age. Why am i sounding that i may die anytime? I duno. Ha, i seldom will think so far de.

I have a short weird dream this morning. In the dream, i slam a huge big guy down and block him from me. That's the end of it. The other day, i dreamt that i was kidnapped and brought to duno where. The policeman was like so near me and the kidnapper. Wah, and the policeman was one handsome strong build tan guy lo. And in the end, we ended up together. Damn funny. I seldom have dreams.

I am blessed that i have nice colleagues who cares about me. I am fortunate. But will i grow to face and deal with nasty, selfish people on my own sensibly? Esp nasty boss who doubt people capabilities. I have not met such kind of people yet. Really felt pamper.

china earthquake- 12/5/08 at sichuan

2008-05-15T21:51:00.003+08:00

I realise that i have stopped blogging for 1 mth. Well, it's simply laziness. Too indulge in watching taiwan dramas during the weekends le. I watched bullfighting & devil beside you. Nice. Time flies fast, real fast. Another 1 more month, i will be rotting at home. At least i need to clear my desk the third time this year. Dust particles are building up when things are left untouched. Haiz, i really don't feel like leaving stc and my colleagues. I was looking thru those pics taken at stc, and felt that the day will come by really soon. Another 2 more mths to sch and i haven't register yet. Really going to do that by next week, hope i dun procrastinate anymore. And ar, need to get those pics from ky. Need to develop lots of photos altogther. Need to get something for my colleagues too. Sux, i hate searching for gifts. Need to buy photo album. Finally, got a jisaw today. Can piece them 1 mth later.

Well, jia you for those people affected by the china's earthquake. Can make donation to sin redcross society to help them. :) And my dad going china for holidays, leaving us all behind. If i am tagging him, i need to paid for my own travel. :( bitter. It's best tt i dun go as i definitely feel left out coz i be speechless w my aunties and uncles. Hope everything will go right.

Enjoy life now, when i have the time and energy. It's vulnerable. And i "etadpu" (update) le, sh.

2008-04-18T19:17:00.002+08:00

YEA! Finally, the recons for jan n feb tally. Hopefully, march will solve soon.
Aw, older ginger is still the spicest. But young ones not bad too. Haha.
The problem lies with wrong formulation. It's like wtf. Haiz. Wondering what will i be doing on monday... haha. Tml is sat.

2008-04-15T18:51:00.002+08:00

Juz got e feeling to blog, but find tt i got nth to type. Emptiness is perhaps my feeling now. Stress from work ar, really want to help them but its not within my capability. Perhaps i need some drive and confirmation. Tml will be 16. Hope everything will be fine. The auditors don't complain. I just found out that the auditors are young. I was expecting some lao kor kor uncles or aunties. A bit mean hor. Haha.

Kenji's new album is real nice. I like the qiao pi-ness of the songs. Some very touching. Should go n buy it soon.

Stress

2008-04-09T18:47:00.002+08:00

3 more days! I have only 3 more days to finish checking transactions of 2 months and the reports are so damn thick. I am already on the pace of 2 days finishing 1 month. I still need to help with the recon after checking. Oh mans. Wish me luck. Save me.

Always wanted to get more clothes, but i am really too lazy to get out of my house during weekends. I don't like to squeeze with the crowd too, cause I definitely lost to em.

Hook up with a book that my bro borrow. It's nice although the language is simple. Going to finish it this week.

Nervous, when will i receive a letter from ntu that said that i am accepted into my choice course?

April is like ending soon. And June will soon arrive. Going to be jobless soon. Will they extend my contract? I like that place and people over there.

2008-04-07T19:09:00.001+08:00

Oh, btw, i juz realise that it has almost been one month le ma, since he escaped. Why still not caught yet? Where are you? Haha.

Blues

2008-04-07T18:42:00.002+08:00

Sigh. Today is Monday and it is the blue-est Monday that I have ever experienced.

- My skin peel off because of that bloody shoes, wear for quite some time le, still like that. Pain.

- Then, have to check those transactions. It’s so damn hard to reconcile with another report. Btw, the reports are those papers that when lay on the floor can turn into a long stretch of carpet. Haha, am I making sense? Forget it. But at times, I really find it challenging and fun. Cause really has a great sense of accomplishment. Haha.

- And, I have to shift around for computer. There is 2 new staff. My seat is gone. Ok, aw, this is good too so I get to exercise by moving around. Sit for entire day or one afternoon, butt pain.

- Oh, and I feel tired and restless.

Come to think of it, I haven’t been running or exercising for like months since December I guess or it is November. Haha.

But today lunch time was great. Cause got treated. Thks. And my colleagues’ conversation was like so damn funny. They are joyful people. And came one guy today. The door knob spoilt again. Worse, it was not fixed properly. Hope tml I don’t find my office in a mess. Haha.

2008-04-06T19:15:00.002+08:00

:) It's weekend again, but it's already like the last day of it. I haven't really like enjoy my weekend yet. I have busy with work for the last 3 weeks. But at least i got something to do, which is good.

Just watched "An Empress and the Warriors" recently. Some of the scenery graphics looked real fake and tampered with. And Rule #1 was gruesome and made me disgust. It's a nice horror movie, but the ending not nice. Wah, just counted 6 movies which i have watched this year, plus 3 dvds. I think this is the year that i watch the most no of movies. Sadly, i didn't watch a movie which i badly want to watch.

Looking forward for a treated lunch tml. Aw, i think job tittles make a different.

2008-03-03T18:15:00.002+08:00

Today is 0303, 3rd of March.

It's a busy day at work today, got "leftovers" for tml to work on, because feb has ended. (haha, what has feb ended got to do with me being busy... haiz.. but got a bit of link) Aw, i feel weird when i walk passed his table and he's not there. A new acctant might be joining us soon. Oh, tml a colleague will be back. And the horoscope bk said tml i must make use of my vocal skills. My translation is bad.

It's the 5th day since tt mas selamat escaped. So long le. Our police like not very effective, but i think they are doing their best. Jiayou. Haha, my colleague was like joking tt rain today will drive him out of the forest or what, cause it's like so damn cold (at office) and he must be hungry.

Counting down, 5 more days to getting a results. whateva the results will be. I am not feeling any jitters or anxiety yet. Oh, and tt horoscope bk states on fri, 7 mar, if got any troubles (heart problems= xin shi), talk to a friend. haha, and on 6 mar, probably will have love at first sight. Joker.

Haiz, today very suai. I got a blue black on my hand instantly after i knocked on a table. It's been a long time since i have blue black on my hand.

~JI leader, Mas Selamat Bin Kastari, male, dark-skinned, 1.85m tall, limping on left leg and is only noticeable when he runs or walks fast is believed to be in sg. :(

2008-03-02T12:08:00.003+08:00

29 Feb
- The leap day.
- The screening of the leap years. Going to catch it soon.
- The last day of feb.
- The last day of ben @ stc

JI leader, Mas Selemat escaped on Wed 28 Feb 4.05 pm, i guess.
I only knew about it on 29 Feb, 7 am at home. Thks for The New Paper at home. Shld be bought by my dad. :) He is still not caught yet, 3 days have passed.

It was the last day of a male colleague at work. Feeling quite sad. Aw, thks for the memories he had given me, though he tease me often. haha. No one will help with photos-taking le. I can take up tt role. :) I really like my workplace.

2008-02-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

26 Feb
-The date tt i watched L with them. Our first movie outing i guess.
-The day tt i opened 40 letters at a go. All in all, a 43.

27 Feb
- 4/9 class outing

28 Feb
- The date tt i spent the first division gathering @ stc.
- In pink n black.
- Took lots of pics today. Thks, ben. :)

21 feb

2008-02-21T19:36:00.004+08:00

21 Feb- the date that L is officially screened.
21 Feb- the date that toto results will be released.
21 Feb- the date that YOG results is released. Singapore 2010!
21 Feb- the date that we all turned up in red for work.
21 Feb- the date that marks the end of cny.
21 Feb- the date that chinese eat tan yuan.

It's so nice to know that we got the bid for youth olympics. Haha. Hiphip horray. :) It's a good chance for sg to prove herself. And we are progressing like so fast, by leaps and bounds. Expecting 2010.

Work was as usual today. What's special was perhaps it was the first time that i opened 39 letters, counted 3445 vouchers, sent out 13 letters, and mix and match over 60 tags in 1 day. I counted so much that i even counted the no of steps that i took to the toilet mentally. Gosh. But it is better than nothing to do and slack. It's real boring when i don't have net access. And special thing was that most turned up in red for work, cause today was the release of a $10m toto results. haha. And we took pics. hahas. And my company very nice, every month got give fruits. Last mth, got oranges. Tis mth, got apples. Haha, the hr are working hard.

Yea, there is a slight recover for me except that my lips are still very dry. The crack lines are like so deep-rooted. :(

19/2 tues

2008-02-19T14:12:00.002+08:00

My lips got worse n affect outside. Skin very itchy n red n pain. Haiz. To describe it is
like one patch of big plaster juz removed off n left e mark over. I don't like this feeling. Hope i will recover soon. Don't feel like stepping out of hse, coz it is very ugly. But tml have to go to work.

What hits me strong is tt i cannot eat egg n chicken!!! I don't want to turn into a vegetarian like my colleague said. I dun want to have veggies for meal. Oh, please.

Feel like watching L n the leap years, coz i got read the book. The story is very touching.
But not out yet. 21 feb n 29 feb. But is there a 29 feb this yr? Maybe can watch 27dresses or ps i love you. But when can i recover??

visit to prema's house

2008-02-17T17:30:00.002+08:00

Juz got home from mdm prema's house. Pop over to see her daughters and got a chance to meet up w peers. Her daughters share the same birth-date, 28 oct. So cool. Both are scorpios. But it's really very coincidental. Can feel the happiness in mdm prema. I can't imagine myself giving birth to a child and need to like look after him. It will be like hell for me. Frankly, i never carry a baby b4. haha. Somehow, i am not interested in them. Say me cold-blooded or wat.

I bought shoes again @ 10. Ok, i really got to save up. haha. Hopefully i can. Maybe stuck at home is a gd thing. Juz as my dad said, " 你出去，一定花钱的。" Precisely.

I am working tml.

2008-02-16T20:11:00.002+08:00

Went to imm yest after work with frenz and spent 26 bucks. I bought a shirt and belt and donated 2 bucks.

I am recovering soon! so happy. today, i can open my mouth and smile too. Haha.
Hope it gets better and i can skip the nsc appt.

miserable week

2008-02-14T12:21:00.002+08:00

OH well, last week and this week has been miserable for me. I was happily expecting the arrival of cny by counting down to it but cny ain't fantastic to me. Sobs.

On the eve of cny, i had kfc for reunion dinner. Special right?

From the first say of cny, I am stuck in a miserable place- m'sia for full 3 days! There's really nth to sight-see over there. And i can't even feel a tinge of happiness or festive mood over there. I can only say the trip was boring and a waste of time. Worse, i was like stuck to the seat in the bus for 10 hours plus on the trip back. I can't stand to toilets there, no toilet papers. I can't stand the ppl in ipoh. They talk as though they are screaming. I see forests, trees everywhere. And i miss the chance to go to shan's hse! At least i can play or gamble over there and win some money back. Haiz. And i only receive 1 red pkt so far, coz my grandmother left us just last yr. I only ate little cny goodies coz i have sore throat n msia got wat? Nth. I swear i am not gg bac to msia again. Maybe will reconsider again if i am gg by plane. Oh, i think i have turn into an utimate pig over there as i eat, sleep and pee.

Back to sg, i got 3 days of mc. Haiz. Y me? I had my lips swollen and crack. Can hardly open my mouth. And i use a tiny spoon to eat and only eat porridge which is so not full. My appetite is great de lo. Cannot eat those new year goodies n my fav jack n jill potatoe chips. Haiz. Miserable ah.

I really need to complain if not i am even more miserable. Typing all those shit things out at least makes me feel much better. And ah meng had juz pass away. Ntu and nus had juz increase their tuition fees. I dislike this rat year. I have a premonition that more unpleasant things are coming. Hope that us stock market will become stable again. Haiz.

Aw, today is the fourteen of feb. Happy Valentine's Day to all my frenz. Our friendship rox. Wonders how is the atmosphere at pjc today.

I need comfort and happiness.

2008-02-03T11:55:00.000+08:00

As i promised sh, these are some pics taken during outing:

shan and sh seeing eye to eye

group pic

Capitaland building!

me and maio

the three of them

my art piece

cheap cny deco; boring day

2008-01-31T16:13:00.000+08:00

31/1 Thursday

This morning was nice. It is finally like month end and Friday is going to come. Yea. And there are 6 more days to CNY. The sky was clear and there is like little clouds. I saw 2 aeroplanes today at my workplace and a big satellite dish. I am not too sure whether it's from my company. Well, I know there is nothing great about seeing it but somehow today this makes me fascinated. Maybe nothing fascinates me anymore- I face files and computer everyday. But I enjoyed working at stc because the place is so green and beautiful and my colleagues are nice people. It is really very decorated up for new year with lots of flowers. And there isn’t serious office politics here. My office is decorated too! Got lucky orange tree. My colleagues even get number from it, interesting right? I only heard before get from tree that looks like monkey. Need to start work le. :)

I went causeway point for lunch again today. My colleagues went to grab cheap cny deco. Plz it is really damn cheap, one for 20 cents, red packets are like one for 10 cents. Guess what, I bought too. I am going to transform into an auntie soon.

This is getting real boring. I have like nothing to do at month end… my colleague was like saying you slowly do, slowly do. But I just can’t slowly do my work. I think too much of stress and deadline at school hhas trained me to do my work fast and type fast. It is 1610 now; I am going home at 50 mins later. But I can’t seem to endure this short yet long 50 mins.

tiring day!

2008-01-30T16:22:00.000+08:00

30/1, Wednesday

Wah, I finally like finish one load of work. And another one pile of stuff is waiting for me to do. So tired… Backache ar!!! This is the most tiring afternoon I ever experience at work. I wanna go home now.

HAIZ… GOSH

This afternoon lunch was nice. I went out to eat. Well, the canteen food just simply sux. The lunch was joyful, my colleagues are funny guys.

7 more days to new year. Yeah. I am going M’sia for new year. First time, for me not to celebrate new year at sg.

emo day

2008-01-26T19:25:00.001+08:00

I am feeling emo right now. I just got back home after a trip to orchard.
I have no idea why I am so emo now, maybe it is because of all the sad songs in the mp3.
Today, the road from mrt to home is ever so long. I am taking my own sweet time home.
Somehow this year, I feel lost. There is like no goal for me right now. Hate this feeling. I really hope I can get back to studies soon. I have lost my fighting spirit and the rush in everything. I seldom laugh now. It is really nice to be in school, laughing with friends and discussing on math qns and phy concepts. Life is getting real boring now. And I am alone.

The class outing is boring, ultra. We went sakae for buffet and walk around at orchard. I should have slack at home. I can’t really feel any togetherness with my classmates anymore, perhaps a little. Well, I think my class has been like that since j2. Dreads. Results are coming out soon.. am I worried? No. My results are sort of expected after I finished the papers. Well, expected as in poor grades. Ok, I am really getting more emo. This is perhaps like one of the few rare times when I get emo.

The horoscope book said that：心情有些不平静，自己要试着调整回来。Well, it’s quite true for today only. Hope that I can hear my laughter again soon.

To my friends who are sick: Take care! Keep healthy! You will recover soon.

BTW

2008-01-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

To sh:

btw

i will post the photos up when i am damn free.

Friday

2008-01-25T22:40:00.000+08:00

It’s like finally fri, the fantastic thing about fri is tt, tml will be a SAT & I can be hooked on the internet for long! Cause I dun need to work tml. Yippee! But I gonna wake up @ 9 plus tml, so pathetic. When did lunch time start at 11 am? Too much of work has made me think that it must be at 12 noon. Oh dreads. (Sh, I will definitely be late tml and if u are late and keep me waiting, I won’t scold you de.) Not really excited abt tml. Sianz. I wanns slp more.

Sux big hell, my com is super lag.. Can’t even finish this post quick.

I hate taking mrt at je at peak hours. If it isn't for the sake of money...
So next time buys flat, don’t buy those tt where the nearest mrt station is an interchange.
I don’t enjoy seeing inconsiderate ppl, ppl with angry faces, and ppl who dun care about their safety. The train is full of ppl when it reaches at e middle track. Shldn’t we allow the ppl to alight first b4 we board, instead of squeezing thru which is so unglam and it speaks so much abt our courtesy. Plz ppl are solids with definite volume, you definitely can’t packed all ppl on the platform into tt train. And if the outflow rate is slower than the inflow rate, the train will be flooded with ppl.

Now is the period where prices are soaring high because it is the New Year period. Those evil sellers really know how to make use of the situation now. Let’s revise; this situation is termed as “demand price inelastic” where the qty rises less than proportionately to the rise in px. Haha, my brain is working. Not bad eh. Hope tt New Year will come soon. Hoping.

Like Luo.

clarke quay

2008-01-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

SUN 20/1

I slept at 3 plus yesterday after watching witch you hee. The ending was so touching. The charac wulong is so handsome. Haha

This morning, I was being awoken up by a piece of good news which I was not excited about at all by my dad. My memory card is extracted out of the card reader. Oh, yea~ And I went like eh, it is out? How? I was still half asleep at that time. The good thing is the card is functioning well. Thanks god! But I don’t dare to test the card reader. You know, once bitten, twice shy.

I have to confess something. Actually sh, I was late because I slept from 1 to 1.30 instead of going to bath at 1 pm. And well, heng heng that I didn’t slept till 2. haha. The horoscope book said that I will be better to stay at home together but I still went out. I just bought that book for fun and everything inside is bullshit la.. perhaps half half. Today, I realize that you will have to pay extra bucks if you stay at the platform for too long. ~info from sh. Where’s my concession fare? I don’t wanna be 18.

I FINALLY meet up w shan n ms. It has been 1 mth since after prom. They are still the same. Went to settlers’ café and blur blur spent 9.60 there for a float and fries. The package sounds like got lots of food to me… It’s really nice to see you guys again. After that, went to clarke quay to walk walk. :) The book said tml i will have a surprise 小恋曲. This weekend was long. Sorry sh, i can't upload e photos.

saturday

2008-01-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

SAT 19/1
Went to ntu this morning. The air is fresher and the sky is clearer over there.
It is a clean place but really very remote.

Went to jp to shop. I finally found a shop that has a skirt of my size! Haha. Ok, I know I sound quite exaggerated. Spent 88 bucks on that shop and got myself a tit-bit at the counter and a 4D no. Cause I spent above 50. Anyway, I didn’t really look what no it is.

Went to popular and got myself a horoscope book for the first time. Now, I come to think of it, it is not really very useful and I sort of read some in popular.

I am going out tml but the book said stay at home is a better decision. Wonders what is going to happen tml. If I am not going tml, it will be like never gonna to meet up with them again.

All the best to bk. Hope he gets his shoes and what he wants soon.

2008-01-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

TUES 15/1

This morning, I coincidentally came across a stamp with the picture of a frangipani. This reminds me of my primary school days as I always pass by a white frangipani tree. And sometimes I feel eerie when I pass by that tree.

This evening, I went to je to shop. I hate shopping! Cause they always don’t sell my size. Sometimes I wonder are the sellers prejudice against those who have thin waist. Haiz. I bought shoes.

That night, I went bonkers. My memory card went into my card reader! And when I reflect, I forgot to put the memory card into its accompanied card reader. Ah,.. I really can’t do things well at night. Now gone is my MEMORY CARD and CARD READER!!!! So expensive lo and everything inside the card. Even if I extract out the card at the expense of the card reader, I think it still will be spoiled. Why I so blur? Arrr…

After typing, I feel like I am doing primary school narration or what.

happy new year

2008-01-05T12:06:00.000+08:00

Today is the start of another weekend, a special one, as it is the weekend of a new year. IT is finally 2008 which I have expected. I just woke up due to a phone call. If not, i suppose i will still be in bed. IT is nice to know that yh got a job and ml is going for interviews. Jiayou for the new job and all the best for the interviews. I'll be praying for you all. Don't be nervous. People are nice. :) OK, tat's quite a consoling phrase. Cause not all is nice. Well, it is a nice sat to begin with.
I am listening to Fahrenheit’s new album. It sounds so-so. Maybe the nice songs are at the last. (Ya-zhou ma) Why like the songs not new to me ar… My bro just bought jay cd. J It’s the 2nd cd that I will like to have. Going shopping later. Yea.

Well, 08 started nice because I was with my jc frenx. Wonder how their chalet went. It had ended on fri. Wonder how ym’s behaviour over there. Haha. Need to catch up with them… Oh, if either shan, ms or sh is reading my blog, when are we gg out? I finally know how to play mahjong. Thanks peers for teaching me. So excited.. I think I got some luck with tat. And the luck like continues with blackjack with cck ppl. I won like 1.40, although it is like small amount but it is the first time that I win overall. I lost when play w ym they all. Oh, maybe ym’s luck too great. Haha. Ya, it’s 08 le. Suddenly duno how to continue. Oh, ya i got jelly n e-o for xchange. Pardon me for spelling e-o wrongly cause i dun bother bout pooh n frenz. haha.

Well, 08 means tat i am an adult, truly 18 which i dread. No more concession for me, no more student meals. Hope to continue studying soon.. working is boring n routine n tiring. I am not complaining bout my current job. I just miss the orientation, the excitement in tutorials, ms lin, school, maths sums and my 1.80 chicken rice.

Hope my family and frenz and me to be healthy, happy in 08. Hope that i got good results. Hope that i got money. Hope that i gain weight. Hoping. Happy new year.

2007-12-29T19:11:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas to all, although now is like 4 days after Xmas. No choice because I am busy with work. I am saddened that my acc at the office doesn’t allow me to access the net. I also don’t dare to ask them. So I need to wait till weekends to go online. :(
Lots of stuff happened during the 4 days. Btw, I celebrated my xmas at sh’s house. It’s nice to see them all. Look forward to another gathering.

I had my lunch with my manager at the canteen with people from other departments too. We were like discussing which course I should take and what kind of job is profitable. I find that the topics adults discuss are all about money and work and salary.
Haha, I still think that I am a young child. And my colleagues call me “xiaomei”. I cannot believe that in 2 years’ time, my age will start with number 2. Gone are the 10s. ~sigh.
Back to the topic, I think I really need to reconsider to whether go into civil eng.
Perhaps another kind of eng. I suddenly realize the importance of studying business or economics. They are like connecting eng with business and $. They analyze like why you should build a structure, is it profitable? Something in that line. They said need to join investment banks or those deals with acquisition to make money. Their pay is like 5 digits per mth. Zhan.But most importantly is that I am happy with it. Anyway, which job doesn’t sux? You will like curse and swear and … but you still continue with it. But to be practical, perhaps c.eng is really not suitable for me. It is like a man’s job and it is a sunset industry. Do we still have space for land? I don’t like to work abroad. Maybe can join teaching and moe just recently increase their pays. One month at least got 3-4k, but you have to tolerate those unreasonable and slow students, stingy principals, long hours, noisy parents. I may sound bad, but I am being realistic. Back to adults’ topics, they complain about the few cents increase in electricity, their never increase pay, the government, the management. Well, I think I will too if I have to support myself alone.

I finally realize that my pay is damn little, too little for the job that I am doing now. How I regret accepting the agency job. But come to think of it, I don’t think I am capable of finding this job on my own. I don’t see stc’s job ad on the papers during my search. If I work well over there, maybe can like get them to sign me on as temp again if there is a chance. I think I am dreaming la. Haha.

Just bought a tv on thurs. Finally. It has been mths since the old one break down. But I don’t like the tv. I still prefer the box. Oh, what a long post. Haha. Oh, I am feeling sick. When can I recover from a sore throat? It is like getting back again. Oh man.

Happy!

2007-12-24T19:45:00.001+08:00

I work half day today. On 31st too. I was terribly tired when i got home. So ended up sleeping.
So happy today, although i didn't go out to play or shop. Why? Not because of xmas, not because i ate log cake today at the office. But because i contact w shan. She is finally back. ~Frenz forever. And more of because i read show's blog today. He is so suai. haah. Oh, did i mention in previous post that i had bought his cd. :) Oh and chun's blog is so educational. And i must admit that his english is superbly good. I got to improve on my standard of english too.

I still roughly rmb mdm prema's quote: I will love the light for it shows me the way and I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars. :) Let's us all work hard.

~Can't wait for '08 arrival. 7 more days to go.

~

2007-12-23T21:21:00.000+08:00

Nth special happened these few days. Fri, sat i went shopping. Sun,i went to visit my grandparents. Perhaps, except that, i realise that i am terribly broke. Ultra broke. I am quite embarass to get money from parents. Dun wan to be 'shen shou zu'. I bought a pair of jeans and show's cd. And i realise that i like show even more. Adore him. But, there goes my 50 bucks again. Um, within dec, i think i had spent like 500 bucks like tat. I have to stop myself from buying stuff again. :( The feeling of going shopping without money is damn terrible. Hope next year will be a better year. Can't wait to collect my salary now...haiz.

Oh, i realise why sometimes gals are accused of slow driving and slow reaction. It is real hard to drive a car, not even say a heavy ultra long lorry. Maybe i am too complacent about being a pedestrian for 18 years and getting ferrying around by public transport.
A driver has to look out for:
1. pedestrians, worse if they jay walk (coz you have to slow down your speed)
2. traffic lights
3. cars who cut lanes, overtake you
4. cars when you want to cross lanes
5. directions and arrows and split lanes if you are unfamiliar with the roads

And the driver can't even relax, worse if he is a new bird, cause he has to turn the steering wheel and step on the accelerator every now and then or even change the gear.

Sux right? and he has to be familiar with the roads, patient to wait for those slow moving cars and pedestrians when he is in a rush, and responsible for his safety and his passengers.

It makes me wonder whether i can manage myself and a car well while on the road. And also whether i should go learn driving. Maybe i will, at a time when i can afford the coe, the disel price and the parking fees. Hopefully, the driving centre don't up their price. Wait for me class 3, i will prepare myself better. :) Last to those drivers: take care, be responsible for your passengers too.

holiday~

2007-12-21T12:41:00.000+08:00

yest is a break from work. It's hari raya haji. yippee. Went out with clique to bugis and got a bag and xmas presie for exchange. oh, i got the silkygirl glitter-in-me perfume. so nice! btw, i met xinyi over there. can't wait till xmas day.. coz celebrating w part of class. N hav another post-xmas gathering w clique. so happy. patiently waiting for the arrival of 08! the fengshui book at kino said that i will hav romantic romanance, motivated education, ... blabla aw, it's all good stuff. Hope n hoping that everything there is true. Significantly, i rmb i be top scorer in 08 and good romance. hope can ace in a level, but i don't think it will really come true. Hoping.

Oh, i still rmb one compre i did in j2. hope is a realistic aim. the analogy behind that i have clear forgotten. haha.

Tis morning is the rarest time where i experience cold breeze at 7.15am while i walk to mrt station. i still rmb this last experience when i was sec 1 when i leave home at 6 am. Although it was really damn cold, i still enjoy it. It brings me bac the memories when i was in china. Also, i actually walk slower than before. When schooling, i am that kind who walk damn fast coz every minute counts and is precious. Really enjoys how i can actually walk slower and look at the scenery around me. My workplace scenery is quite green! :) Hope got ot on fri then can see the horses running and thousands of ppl yelling! haha.

busy bee

2007-12-18T18:54:00.000+08:00

Just celebrated michelle's birthday on sun, wanted to blog on it, but got no time on mon. Btw, happy birthday, michelle. The dinner was nice and full. oh, I was damn anxious on that day, cause mon is my first day of work. wonder how the ppl are over there. they are nice ppl, but i seldom talk to them. you know, i am quite busy over there and got nothing to talk to them too. duno what to say. although i dun really need my brain over there, coz i rely on calculator, i still prefer school than work. And i seldom touch the com too. There is like 0.00001 % of me using the com to surf the net or chat on msn, cause .... need pw and when log in already, when it turns to sleep mode, u need pw again. i never see security on patrol over there but can say the place is highly secured. I say not further explain why.

Aw, got a job is nice although it may be very tired. Coz i got pay and can help the ppl over there n can sleep at 9. Dun need to sleep at 2 or 3 am, it is damn miserable to keep tossing in bed or watching tv when your eyes are actually very very tired. :)

jobjobjob

2007-12-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, i quit my job. Today, i accept another job. That's fast right.
The first job sux (my personal opinion). Should not go on explaining it. i can only say tt it is a challenging and tough and tiring job to have. Perhaps, i am not cut for tt kind of job. But the ppl there was nice and friendly. And jia you for sock.

I was so happy that april called me in the morning tt i got an interview. Really damn happy. I was like grinning from ear to ear. I intended to call her if she didn't call me. Today interview was alright, basically she ask us to ask her qn. Weird hor. haha. But was not really happy about getting the job, cause ml now still no job. April was like so enthu n excited over the other end. She is a nice person. Hope ml got a job soon and yhua and whoever those who wanted one. Sianz, going to work soon. oh mans. Hopefully everything is peaceful and on the right track. But the job need sign contract, sad lo. Haiz.

tired~

2007-12-12T00:53:00.000+08:00

Already wed le. suddenly feel so tired. wanted to change blogskin de, but still don' t know how to. The wordings are so small that strain my eyes. See tml can get help not. I still haven read yesterday news yet, maybe tml read ba. Oh, went to friendster yest, so boring. Didn't see people portfolio, aw, didn't bother to. change a lot, perhaps competing with facebook or what. suddenly, know what to do when insomnia, use the com. When my eyes is pain, i will sleep. Going to sleep le. Good night.

BUSY W IDLING

2007-12-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

Wahha, I was looking at my phone calendar suddenly and found that I was busy for a week after prom. See ar, post prom ended on wed and I rest at home. Thurs, I couldn’t remember what I did. I think I did ironing. That day, 6 dec, was Andrea’s birthday. Fri, I went to look for work with friends till evening. Sat, I went Andrea’s house to celebrate her birthday. Sun, I went to watch movie. Mon, I went to look for job again. Tues, accompany ml see piano. Oh gosh, I haven been coming online to slack! Tml, I think I will be going out to shop. Thurs, reporting for work. AH!

Hate these few days, it had been raining! And I still went out. When is Dec going to end? Plz, stop the rain. Oh, the rest of time, I am doing housework. No choice, my mum keeping complaining about no one helping her do housework and to make myself useful I have to do. They keep complaining before and after prom about when am I going to get a job… and my dad was like saying haven work still keep spending money. I hate to be 18!

I haven been drawing since last month. Not at all. I think it will be hard for me to sit at my study desk again at least till uni. Just now, my mum passed me ‘Today’ and say that being thin will affect fertility. Just read a few paras, and it is changing my mind on whether I should still remain thin not. Ah! It’s not that I want to be thin too… but I think I should do something about it too… maybe I need to really eat veggie from now on. Or perhaps, I must eat. Oh gosh, kill me. But To thin or “thick” people: read that article if possible. It is dec 11 today, pg 37, “The thick and thin of fertility.” Oh, today new paper headline is about 17 riding a car, something close. Going to read it later.

Yeah, tml going out. There’s another time I need to do, read my Chinese book. Bought for weeks le ba… jia you, tml is a brand new day. :)

30 Nov 07

2007-11-30T16:29:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, I feel the urge to blog and so I am here. There is like quite lots of thoughts in my mind now, maybe due to post-school disorder or something similar.

This morning, I read the news on the dragon boat tragedy while tear-ing. Somehow, I feel extremely sad for their parents who lose their sons who should have a bright future. This incident taught me a lesson that life is precious and it should not be taken for granted, not at all. This is a quote from Reuben’s father: “And when you go home, cherish your mother. Hug your mother, say, ‘Ma, I’m home’, because there will come a day when you move out or something worse will happen, and you’ll no longer hug your mother.”
I feel that I am quite a lousy and not filial daughter who will make my parents worry for me. This is what I need to improve on and reflect. And I have not been really contributing to my family much.

Suddenly reminisces of my secondary school life and feel that I am not longer that innocent and stress-less girl in school. And I feel old and 14 or 16 sound better than 18. Being 18 comes with lots of responsibilities. How I wish, I could learn from ml who always has an optimistic mind. Perhaps, that’s life and everyone is different and unique.

boring

2006-11-07T10:48:00.000+08:00

drats, i found myself not been blogging since oct. haah, and i am too lazy to switch on my com, not to say to type. dun wish my blog to be sooo empty or dry, so i am crapping down here. later still need to go sch for op technical run haiz. i have never do anything so far like memorising my script or wat. i am juz staying put, doin nothing except slacking at hm. oh ya, last sat went to vivo city to celebrate jh's bdae, in a way la. haha, first time there. at first was not a lot of crowd, but gradually after our lunch, boom, the crowd suddenly grew bigger. so hard to walk lo. wanted to go shopping but since we are catching a movie so no time. Perhaps, anytime. i am going to get my dad there when he return back. yeah, can shop for clothes. somehow, found that i am having an illusion or wat in vivo. the playground area look so like first level. anyway, the view there is nice. oh ya, we watched flushed away. quite nice, but so parts are so disgust n ke lian. :) like the singing of the slugs. so nice, perfection. hehe. btw, happy bdae shihua. off to tv again.

japanese students

2006-10-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

:) the japanese students came to pj on wed (25/10). the gals veri ke ai, but rather short. the guys beri handsome n cool. haah. after co performance, we bring them around sch. Sch tour was damn boring, nth to say to them oso. Wan to say also duno how to open mouth. btw, i didn't really expect my group ppl to be all guys la. my gifts for them are rather gay lo.. hope they dun mind. ahh. initally, duno wat to say to them... a lot of communication probs. when i talk also have their slang... my grp got one cute guy :) , one cool guy, one baby-face de, n one like those cut out for fighting scene de. All soccer team de except one is from judo.

after that, is refreshment. i found that jap ppl dun really take spicy stuff. one bit of otah was like hell for one of them le. the cool guy damn steady, eat 3 otahs. btw, i dun take spicy stuff too. the food not nice de, yucks.

then we went to somewhere near esplanade for dinner. the journey was damn long n tiring. ya, at times it is so hard to understand each other that we resort to drawing. :) i even pi shou hua jiao. so weird, i seem like an idoit when i do actions. celine will surely laugh at me n said why you talk muz do actions de. haha.

actually, my grp beri quiet nver talk de. ym's grp was so fun lo. xian mu ta men. after everything, send them to hotel lo. we are not the latest grp. :) the time was quite rushed cannot brim them to anywhere lo.. btw, my energy level is alreadi halved when we were in the bus. tat day damn tired, i also duno why.

then yest went to send them off at airport. they beri blur, nver see me n elisa. when they saw us, they were like ohh. they damn like to ohh lo. haah so cute. den i wanted to take photo with my grp de, den asked shyogo (hope i spell correctly) helped us take. he tot i want to take photo with him la.. den when i say no. he was so pai seh n e rest keep laughing. haha. so sorry. finally, got their names. wanted to see them cried de, but they didn't. duno when they cry, how will they look like. haah. after tat, went home le.

lifeless life

2006-10-18T05:18:00.000+08:00

sianz. tis morning wake up at 1 am... in fear. i was suppose to get up at 9 pm last nite to do pw but ended up sllping till 1 am. wanted to continue to slp, but scare i slp till 6 am. lie on bed.. keep thinking about pw n me waking up at 6 am. so got up at 2, bath, do pw, finish at 5 am. but can't find any pic.. anyway, i oso lazy to really find. :) it's so tranquil at 2 am. yeah! back to slp le.. :)

tiring

2006-10-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

nowadays, i get tired very early n can't get myself out of bed in e morning. i wonder why. i dreamt that i fail my chem paper.. so sad. i am so scared n worried now. haiz. pw op coming soon, n i am a bit worried. Hope to get an grade 1. co quite stress. today, we hav the career seminar, i went for engineering n uniformed grps. i didn't expect it to be chemical engineering- which i not really like. hope for civil or industrial engineering.. so the sharing will quite dry for me. feel quite disappointed. then the ug includes: spf, scdf, saf. The speaker from saf speaks like a machine gun.. haha, similar to me. It is quite fun as the speaker is quite lame, the e usage of words n the way he presented it is funny. The other 2 speakers are rather boring. The officers are quite short lo.. except the one from spf. quite weird. oh, i can't get into saf de. i lack of 1 cm.. n my deg is more than 500.. haha, nvm. on the whole, i think that i didn't really benefit a lot from this sharing session. oh, one more thing, the officer from spf has poor presentation skills. :) i was like observing them how they present.. maybe too stress with op. haha. i observe that the officer keep turning back n looking at the slides, which is veri distracting lo.. haha. i think he is nervous or wat. n he don't seem to know spf mission n vision by heart. still need to look at slides. :) jia you !

unlucky day

2006-10-12T00:26:00.000+08:00

log on to internet at exactly 12 am. :) n decided to talk abt ytd. ytd morning assembly was damn long.. due to prize-giving.. damn lot of people. went thru chem mcq.. i think tat i fail coz everyq was like wrong. nvm. sianz.. dun talk abt exams le. we were released damnn early.. 11.30 am. slack around. wanted to go to sanctuary play pool or monopoly de.. but they didn't open n we spend half hour waiting.. pai tuo.. nxt time ar, plz put notice outside sanctuary. so unlucky. next unlucky thing was tat the co instructor got come.. so long nver practice le n i alreadi frgt my fingerings le.. die lo. today still have co 5-8 pm lo.. my dinner!!! damn scare coz a bit guilty. then the instructor dun let us go for work shadowing briefing in the first place de lo.. n we took 1 hr or so.. everytime he comes, i dan zhang xin jing lo.. haiz. third unlucky thing: wanted to go home, but spent abt half hour at the busstop. tat idiotic 985 bus driver ar, bus broke down didn't say anything to us n still let us go up. n he claimed tat he told us. so i n shan ended up getting up and alighting at the very same busstop. 4th unlucky thing: on the bus saw something unsightly.. n it caused to be scare. better not explain anymore here. ah,.. scared for e 2nd time on the same day. 5th unlucky thing: saw someone injured on the way home. tink he met with accident or wat.
ytd was so damn unlucky. wth. haiz.. hope tml would be better. but i dun think will get any better with me ending sch so late... :(

haPPy

2006-10-10T21:40:00.000+08:00

YEah, Yeah!!! so happie... finally got my blog really done up after 1 year.....
thks to shihua.... you are the best la. btw, i am also too lazy to ask ppl for help.. haha
can update posts everyday le... since exams are OVER... yes over... finally lo.. but the j2 a levels coming... see they study so hard at sch while we (j1) are playing n laughing... i feel really damn weird.. duno y. really duno y. but anyway... can slack too much.. later lost my balance..
oh.. my birthday is coming.. haha. nth happened much today la.. went to eat, went to watch my class bowl n pool. went sh hse n get this blog done. tatda! :) oh somemore, i feel that i am quite accurate at shooting short distance at gunbound.. but bad at long distance. duno y. have a great time playing with jw. :)

tagged!

2006-10-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

I have been tagged. :( sobsob.
Actually, i intended to ignore this lame thing. But since, it is tagged by ms and she asked me to do this.. er have to give her face. Btw, i do believe in love at first sight.

The 8 qualities my dream guy should have:
1. appearance--
He muz be presentable, not have a nerdy look, taller than me (pref 170-175). Muz be 顺眼 (shun yan).
2. age--
I dun like young boys. He muz be same age as me or 1-5 years older. Pref born in 1988 or 1987. :)
3. love--
He muz love me more than i love him. If not, it will be a torture for me. can be easy with him. (dun understand e last sent, nvm)
4. intelligence--
He muz be on par with me. i hate stupid guys. Only then, we can communicate and see eye to eye.
5. personalities--
(i) confidence: muz hav confidence in himself and trust me.
(ii) caring
(iii) tolerance: i might nag n complain a lot. sometimes, will laugh to myself.
(iv) faithful n committed: to everything he does n he possesses. (do i spell correctly? i suppose)um, tat is he should have personalities that is close to mine.
6. sticking (um, anything la. this dun sound pro)--
dun stick to me like a glue or wat. dun call me everyday or wat. very irritating n i have stuffs-hw, sleep- to do at night.
7. naughty--
i dun like too guai guy. he muz be decisive too, dun listen to others. hate cc. (copycats) muz can play with me one. (sounds weird, nvm)
8. all rounded--
good at everything- sports...bad at organize things, nvm, i can help. :)
Basically tat's all... btw, i am demanding n i admit. ok, it is quite long. haha.

hey, yinghua .. i tag u... do this lame thing ba...

Creation by: alice in lalaland :)

stress life i have

2006-08-29T19:31:00.000+08:00

juz want to complain n complain about wat? my life. i hate studying.. is it really worth it to study so hard.. i am lost in this junction right now!!! who? who can lead me on the right track? haiz.. ya, first time, new experience, having lesson on TEACHERS" DAY!! why? would such thing happen? n still have make up lesson on eve of teachers' day... i miss the old days where my life is not as stress as now.. even my o lvl year is not so stresss la... getting more n more hate studying... what shld i do? but really muz kotow to that teacher lo, willing to spend her one whole day a teachers' day a holiday in school teaching us nonsense students, i suppose.. :) euff of today craping.. back to playing before to work....

9.6.06. Last Day of self- leadership training

2006-06-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

9.6.06 is the last day of our self-leadership training by the absorbent mind.. conducted by lye.
REALLY benefited alot from this. The past trainings that i went were more of a team n achieving e goals w a lot of philosophies. Almost all team- building games lo. tis is so different. REALLY. not bluffing, ask e ppl hu went. i duno how explain e feeling, but it's really weird lo. it seems tat e past trainings tat i went had been wasted and gone downthe drain.

today meant a lot for me lo. i didn't really expect much from e trainin today lo. but for today, i muz said it really bring our class to a higher levl. can really see the efforts of my ct, every single one... There's a chi saying that goes, "huan nan jian zhen qing." so touched today,- but can't cry duno y-.. by my class boys.. i dun even noe whether my sec 4 class boys will do this not... though they quite joke, joke everyday. But i think at times they will be serious... harris, eechang i am not referin to u all. :)
so touch lo.. they really went all the way to support us - physically even ppl hu is heavier than em. i dun think i hav so much confidence in me.. really pei fu 'em till "wu ti tou di." really tis training has brought us closer, even though our class always have a lot many events than e other classes. but one thing i discovered was tat e boys quite violent... esp .... (i felt being crushed) :) thks to all those "supporters." i shall not mention names out. :) btw, e feeling of being supported is so shiok! haah.. dun need do anything, dun need use legs,... free lunch.hehe

ya, today oso touch by e love stories sent by haikel... first time i really use my heart to forward emails lo.. i will normally dun read coz too long.. wording size too small... delete it when reading first few lines.. n i will delete all crap mails n chain letters... so this explains y u dun c me forwarding mails.... i juz too lazy n i think those mails are like no use at all. so y bother forwarding.. but the 2 love stories are really touching.. really. hope tat i can share w u all. e candle one quite nice too.

it's a pity that e obs ppl not w us today. maybe we can try e games in our own time... haha. but atmosphere will be rather weird, i guess. :)

oh, really much thks siao chien, jas, n shirlynn n everyone tat make tis trainin a success. Thank You.

haha, but after this muz study for mye le. sianz lei... *yawn*.. i am really yawning now! heeh. feel like slping.. but world cup is bring screened now on chn 5...

oh, ya. today get back chi assignment..i fail lo.. got 7/20.. i can't imagine la.. chi always get a from pri sch. come jc fail. even shan get so high.. damn disappointed in myself.. went back to reflect. i didn't really put my heart n soul into doing it lo.. but i dun really understand e qn n wat ans e qn really one.. maybe i can't think deep.. haiz... i duno wat's happening in me lo. find tat i am really slack, assignments are like half done.. n doubts are always not clear till now..i felt tat i let mrs philips n 4/9 down.. (always clear ur doubts?) omg... it's a risk to me! haiz... stressed up ar.. maybe i am too arrogrant n ignorant... hope i can still get e scoldings from mrs philips n madm prema. i miss my sec 4 life n my class... everyone is so tensed up by a maths haah.. n it's so fastpaced no time is lost... now i am not even paying attention to teachers in tutorials n lectures! what's happening to me???? arrr.... screwed up, man..

jc life

2006-04-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

ar.. so sianz. hate jc life, make me so exhausted. ahhh. my timetable end so late everyday la n reach hm latest 9 pm... sianz. now home is hotel to me, go hm slp. i dun even do my hw at weekdays la.. all tutorials finish by weekends as soon as possible... haiz.

wow.. den az said my class mugged a lot.. haiz.. sy oso like tis say. so sad la.. but oso quite true.
but they are all nice ppl. beri sianz.

hate pw la.. my pi is like ae lo.. den he said whole class almost all ae.. haben redo pi no mood.. den gp reflection articles a lot lo.. i still at wk 2, nxt wk is 5 liao.. die ar....

nowadays so busy no time online.. den so nber update lo... :)

holidae~

2006-03-17T19:32:00.000+08:00

Holidae is here.haiz~ me at hm slack. slacker. But today, went to school for atomic structure lecture. M late la.. best sia, make me n 2 wait. somemore already push meeting time early by 5 mins. always like that. M better change hor.. (plz dun b angry). Tat mr lim best sia. Teach so gd.. better than e past lecturer. (not criticising her) After tat, stay back in sch do hw. wanna buy tie - coz mon MUZ wear n tat bkshop auntie dun even noe her business well. haiz so no tie today. Luckily, yh found a lobang.. den got tie cheaper somemore.. haha. so gd. thks ar. yea!!! ya, stay back till like 4 something ba. den intend to cut hair one.. but reach hm too late le. My mom said tml cut.. haha. juz cut a little bit shorter ba-i guess. tml, phy lecture kinematics. WOW, ms lin give de ws sux like hell la.. so tough almost all 2-D motion qn i can't do. 1 qn like think for 1 hr. thks to sy, she helped me.. haha..

holidae2~

2006-03-17T19:24:00.000+08:00

haha. Today, i still slack at home. In the afternoon, I have my hair cut. So good.. a little bit shorter and after that slept till now... haha. Then, decided to blog lo. Ya, finally able to play maplestory le. Did not download the patch but luckily the autopatch was successful. However, it was damn slow lo. Wanted to go orbis and take the tube but heartache that my messos will be like left so much little.. haha.